Many thanks to Cheryl Andrews for once again giving me the inspiration for this challenge!
Writing has been my escape for almost as long as I can remember. All my joys and heartbreaks, triumphs and confusion, are worked through and figured out in my journals.
Posted by Heart To Harp on May 23, 2013
On The Beach
Posted by Heart To Harp on May 13, 2013
I made myself finish the second of the latest pair of socks before I would start my sweater. (I swore that knitting WILL NOT turn into yet another collection of unfinished projects!)
These are knit on the sock loom in a basketweave pattern out of Lang “Mille Colori” Socks and Lace superwash yarn. I doubt that I will use this brand of sock yarn again. I love the color, but there were so many slubs and very thin places that I am concerned about how the socks will wear.
I named them “Whovian” socks as they remind me of the multicolored knitted scarf that the Tom Baker Dr. Who always wore.
Posted by Heart To Harp on May 7, 2013
One of my favorite bloggers, Strawberry Indigo, wrote this post that is the perfect follow up to the video about real beauty that I reblogged recently. Enjoy, and drop by her blog for more thought provoking writing.
Posted by Heart To Harp on May 6, 2013
If you asked for follow-up pictures from my post for the Weekly Photo Challenge: Future Tense, here’s one “from above.”
I started my first sweater on Friday. I am knitting it “top down” so what you see will become the sweater neck and shoulders.
Posted by Heart To Harp on May 5, 2013
New York City: Times Square – July 4th, 2012
Posted by Heart To Harp on May 2, 2013
The Scissor Arches of Wells Cathedral
“The scissor arches, which often visitors believe to be later, modern additions were constructed from 1338-48 as an engineering solution to a very real problem. By 1313 a high tower topped by a lead covered wooden spire had been constructed but as the foundations were not stable large cracks began to appear in the tower structure. In fear of a total collapse, several attempts at internal strengthening and buttressing were made, until the famous ‘scissor arches’ were put in place by master mason William Joy as a final solution.” -Wells Cathedral Website
Posted by Heart To Harp on April 24, 2013
I gave a friend my courage stone – a small polished piece of hematite etched with the word “courage” that’s been on my remembrance altar for almost 25 years.
She faced a major challenge, one that would require all of her intellectual, emotional and spiritual resources to get through. I wanted to give her something tangible to remind her that she had what it would take, a talisman to hold close when fear appeared. I left it for her with a note saying “You will have all you need.”
And I remembered when a different friend put the courage stone in my palm and gently closed my fingers around it. I was slogging through therapy, doubting that I would find the path through the darkness, doubting that I would survive to ever find joy. I needed all the courage I could muster.
I remembered those dark years, and the long-ago comfort of that stone in my pocket while on the way to the Consort dress rehearsal I was dreading. While wandering through the backstage hallways, I realized that if I thought of all the things that were truly frightening and truly life threatening that I survived, this or any dress rehearsal was not on that list. This wasn’t cancer, or my mother’s violence, or a head-on collision, or a nearly lethal viral infection. This was just playing music I practiced and played all semester with people I know and like. That’s all. Nothing hard, nothing threatening, nothing to dread.
I played the entire rehearsal without fear, without dreading some future moment when I might screw up, without arming myself with strategies for managing the shaking hands, twisting stomach and racing thoughts of performance anxiety. What a joy to just play, to feel confident, to revel in the sounds of the different instruments coming together, to feel the music fill the recital hall. What a delight to enjoy the rehearsal and to have fun playing!
A week later, I had just as much fun playing in our concert. By remembering the past, there was nothing to fear in the present. By giving away courage, I had all I would ever need.
Posted by Heart To Harp on April 18, 2013
I don’t do Facebook so didn’t see this video that is making the rounds. Lucky for me, my favorite new blogger, Baddest Mother Ever, posted it today.
It is such a revelation to see oneself through another’s eyes, through eyes unimpaired by the filters that block us from seeing our true selves and our true beauty.
And the video reminds me that it is also a revelation to hear myself play music through another’s ears, to allow myself to listen to the beauty they hear, when what I hear are the mistakes.
You Are More Beautiful Than You Think | Baddest Mother Ever.
Posted by Heart To Harp on April 18, 2013
Shade Returns To The World
Yesterday evening, leaves were in tight little bumps of bronze-green at the tips of tree branches.
Today they are unfurled, returning shade to the world.
Posted by Heart To Harp on April 13, 2013